ge96

96 is not reflecting my age, I'm in my early 30s

This is a throwaway so I can be dumb and learn stuff

Career/partial life bio

Decided to trim this about down, will post pastebin links overtime

Aug 2025

I had an epiphany last night. Despite my life standing (albeit not much) eg. six-fig job but almost six-fig debt, I'm poor but in terms of life not a loser eg. have my own 2BR apt and fun fast car. The main thing that makes me sad about my life is I'm not having a lot of sex with random women. I want to be the so called "Chad". But anyway I stumbled upon this older guy who has pictures of him and random younger women nude and I'm like, damn that's my hero. Anyway gives me hope like I'm still young so there is that future. I also think I'm going to get a vasectomy since I don't see myself raising a family. I want to be the guy with money that bums around, the playboy. I don't have the mindset for it currently since I'm the meek insecure guy with low self-esteem and afraid of homeless people. But for now I'll focus on getting out of debt and freeing myself from the 9-5.

It might be time to fix it (Tame Impala) I want to live for something not just go to work and pay bills

Funny a big problem in my life is social anxiety, with women in particular. I don't have a problem driving fast but I can't seem to overcome that ha. Soon I will get back on my debt relief goals, I haven't driven UE in a month. Need to start making that part of my life again. It's not all bad, I get to see random places and talk to people. I'm sitting here donating plasma now. Funny how I do this and make 3-4x what the other people make.

So much of the time I'm used to being in a bad state like something I'm working on needs more work. Today I get the good news something I made is 100% working and I'm like "how is this true?" looking for an explanation ha.

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Previous mental samples

https://pastebin.com/y0R0JWBz (Jun 2025 - Jul 2025)

https://pastebin.com/k2hqR8uN (Mar 2025 - Jun 2025)

https://pastebin.com/5xCTbGsu (2023 - Mar 2025)